We all have those
moments days weeks months where we feel like we're at our wits' end and life is spiraling uncontrollably towards the unknown. Towards a hazy, unpredictable future evolving out of the present, which presently seems like it is overflowing with inadequacies, fears, and failures. But then I remember God, who sent his son to set us free, whose death on the cross enabled us to cast these things aside and enter into a relationship with our creator. Lately God has been reminding me of how great and perfect his love is for us. His love endures without conditions and is in no way dependent on our actions. When we sin against him, it grieves him. When we glorify him, it brings him joy. Yet his love for us remains unchanged. This is huge. God chooses to love us knowing that we will turn our backs against him. It is our nature. But through his grace and love he is capable of growing us out of this as long as we put our faith in him. So when it feels like no matter how hard I try to control my life I'm merely grasping at straws I can take comfort in knowing that my life is not mine to control. My life is in God's hands and his plan so greatly outweighs anything I could have ever imagined or hoped for myself. I can find peace even in the haze because the One with true vision is leading me towards perfect clarity one step of faith at a time.
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart."
- Jeremiah 29:11-13